Unsurprisingly, I’m going to have to agree with Dr. Crazy on the actual prompt for today:
Jesus H. Christ. I’m just going to pretend that the whole “core story” business is not part of this prompt, because if I have a core story (and I’m not saying that I do, because eewww) I certainly don’t think that’s public property and I don’t intend to share it with the world.
As she did, I intend to just skip right to the bonus section of today’s #reverb10 prompt, because I just don’t docore stories. Looking back, what I find is that that was a common thread — that I often felt as if #reverb10 were asking me to write about things that I just don’t do. So there is a lot of snark and resistance in my responses, not just to individual prompts but to the project as whole. In general, I think my resistance came from what I described in my response to the December 12 prompt as “the unacknowledged privilege that permeates the whole thing.” Because lets face it — I sat in my well-furnished, heated house in a nice neighborhood every morning writing on my expensive computer about me, me, me, me. One needs to have a fair amount of privilege in order to indulge in that kind of navel-gazing. I’d also add that the prompts tended to promote the idea of a kind of psychological wholeness (e.g., a core story) that I, as a Freudian/Lacanian, have a hard time accepting.
Why, then, did I not only start the project but stick with it, you may ask? Good question — I started because I thought I could stand to do some more reflecting and also because this was a good way to get into the habit of daily blogging without having to come up with a daily topic on my own (and in fairness, it’s not as if they gave us the prompts all at once, so I couldn’t know how they would make me feel). I do think that both those goals were met — and I like to think that I was sometimes able to push my responses beyond pure individualism. On the last day, I can say that I’m glad that I did it and that I hope it wasn’t too painful for folks to read.
On tap for 2011 — The Daily (or Weekly Post) at WordPress.com.
Note: This is my (final!) response to the #reverb10 prompts for December 31. #reverb10 is an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next. Each day has a prompt. The December 31 prompt is: “Core story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.)”